About
Thanks for stopping by the blog. This is a place to share my spiritual & creative journey
Engtovo Bhodsvatan
You can contact me at – engtovo at gmail dot com
45 in June of 2008, a cancer by sign, single with no children, (and just one ex-husband) although my mother and I raised and home schooled my nephew Eric for the better part of his life. I love photography and rock and roll, 50’s – Current, but not the heavy duty rap, some classical is ok but opera annoys the hell out of me. I love to take road trips, although way too many of them in my life have included moving, I guess I am a bit of a gypsy. I was born in the Minneapolis area and was there til about 13 and then became a Seattle girl well into adulthood. Since then I have lived in Hawaii, Alaska, Arizona, Colorado and Montana and now plan a move to Oregon. I just go where ever my intuition guides me.
I am pretty laid back I like movies and yes, I’ll admit it, I like TV. It’s not on all the time but I have my shows that I get hooked on. Survivor, American Idol, Jericho this year and lets not forget Stargate SG1 and Atlantis.
Unlike most metaphysicians I am not a vegetarian and have no plans to become one, my body does best on low carbs, lots of protein although I have not been too good about that this year and I’m feeling it lol Yes I see more bowflex and no candy in my future, it’s my official psychic reading for my self. Speaking of psychic readings I don’t believe in them for two reasons,
1. People charge an outrageous amount of money for them, and lots of the people are not even any good if they are psychic at all. There has to be a better way to spend your cash folks! If you can’t think of one, send me the cash, I won’t give you a reading but I won’t have a problem spending your money if you just wanna give it away anyway lol
2. It steals people’s self reliance, we are each supposed to find our answers within and trust our own intuition, it is one thing to point someone in the direction and another to just tell them what’s going to happen in their life. We have free will! A psychic, even a good one only sees the most likely probability and that could change tomorrow because of choices we make. (thank god!)
Conscious Sobriety
I practice what I would call conscious sobriety. I was never an alcoholic and am not part of AA. I abstain from all mind altering substances by choice. This includes all the various plants spiritual people use to heighten their consciousness and obtain spiritual visions. That time has passed! The planetary vibration is sufficiently high enough to reach out for spiritual growth and vision without the use of chemical substances natural or artificially produced. Any one who can’t grasp this is not using the substances for spiritual purpose anyway. Chemically altering your consciousness at this point if you are truly on a spiritual path is LOWERING your vibration. Now because I liberal in my views on other people’s lives, if you want to lower your vibration, have at it. Just don’t lie to me about how your are advancing your path by doing it! BTW things like Prozac & Zoloft and so forth are mind altering substances, as is fluoride and these should be avoided if you care about your vibration. If you are diagnosed with bipolar disorder and simple lithium won’t balance you then there is another issue to be found because true bipolar disorder is a chemical lithium imbalance. Doctors have become drug pushers for the big pharma companies, especially shrinks. If you care about being on a spiritual path then you have to take control and personal responsibility of what you put into your body. It is not normal to think a problem on any level will be solved by taking a pill.
My Politics
Occasionally I write about politics and world events. I am an independent who has never belonged to a political party. I would consider myself personally conservative and politically liberal. I feel those who are truly conservative should be able to monitor their own moral perspectives without trying to force them on other people. I feel organized religion should stay out of the law making business, and politicians have a responsibility to represent all the people, not just those who agree with their own religious perspectives. For those confused on how one is both conservative and liberal I will say this, I am PRO CHOICE, I’ve known many women over the years who had abortions, it was not an easy choice for any of them, and every one of them made the correct choice for themselves. Personally I would not under any circumstances have an abortion, that is MY choice. I would consider a new life growing within me to be a sacred gift to me from the Creator. To me a child brought into the world by a woman who does not feel this way is not being done any favors! To all the religious right who obsess on controlling everyone in the world and forcing them to live by their small world view, I say, when you can provide food clothing and shelter for EVERY single mother and child on the planet now, then maybe the rest of us will stop and listen to your bitching about abortion. With 6.5 billion people on the planet, a huge portion of whom are not living with their basic needs met, your obsession to force women who are not ready to be mothers, to have babies is at best disgusting! The truth is women from all societies had herbs to bring on their menstruation which was simply herbal abortion and It would be great to get back to that natural way of things. There is no reason for women to suffer through mechanical abortion. Each woman should have 100% control of her own body PERIOD. While I am at it every parent who cannot be proven abusive should have complete control of their own children. Schooling, vaccinations, healing techniques, alternative or mainstream etc. are all things the government and big business should stay the hell out of. Refusal to get chemotherapy for example is NOT abuse. One could argue substantially that it is the chemotherapy that is abusive. Threatening to take people’s children away because one parent’s choices are not mainstream and accusing them of abuse or not loving their children is just fascism pure and simple.
Engtovo Uncensored
The Fires Me Up category is about things that fire me up and I want to talk about, bitch about, vent. I am a very passionate woman. Things that happen in the world evoke strong emotions in me. These emotions move through quickly and are not held onto, although they may present themselves again at a later date when someone somewhere stokes my fire all over again. The subject matter doesn’t matter, it may have serious consequence like nuclear war or it may be mundane like soaps and other TV shows. If I am fired up about it for an instant and near the keyboard that’s a good enough reason to write about it. 
I started this category to be a place where I am totally uncensored in my opinions so there is profanity and likely other things that will offend lots of people. Offended? DON’T READ IT or feel free to comment, not that I’m going to give a damn about your opinions in this category if you do comment.
The Heavy Spirit Stuff
The information on this blog has come through directly from spirit. Although I may have some items on the site that are expressions of people I know, the majority of the site will remain dedicated to the work spirit has laid out before me. It is a sharing of my inner journey and a place to share yours, not a replacement for inner work through outward seeking. There are not archives of other peoples channeling, or excerpts of their books. This is home, what you find here more than anything else will be a reflection of the work that I do, and the work of the people that are in my life and that I respect. This work is personal ascension, and planetary healing. The ascension and healing process is full of raw emotions. It is stripped down and real, unfortunately it is not all “light and love” and new age dogma. This process requires discernment and truth, and the willingness to set boundaries in a world where oneness is the ultimate goal.
I am a grid worker/teacher from the Order of Enoch, working to help raise the vibration of the Earth Mother and her inhabitants. I am a clairaudient visionary, channel, intuitive healer, writer, and creator of tools for healing and growth. I work closely with the energy grid system of the planet, cleaning, maintaining, and creating vortex and leyline systems with my spirit guidance. An important part of this work is earth ceremony, especially work with the drum.
My unique knowledge is a form of earth shamanism, taught directly to me by my spirit guidance and the Earth Mother, through years of clairaudience and meditation. My guidance has carefully prepared me for this earth walk, not allowing this knowledge to be diluted by filtering it through the teachings of others. I teach discernment and empowerment, allowing others the power of their personal truth. I came to the earth to walk the path to full remembrance of my divinity, and share this path with those who desire to know the divinity within themselves. This ascension path I call The Return to Eden. It is a series of meditative techniques for processing through karmic lessons, returning to a state of natural perfection. This is called becoming a Dharlja
The healing work I do is always offered freely. It is given freely to me from the Creator and to be passed on to whomever is in need of this energy. The work is a combination of hands on healing, along with energy work on the mental, emotional, and spiritual bodies. Drums, rattles , crystals bowls, and Tibetan bells and bowls are used as well as a wide variety of stones and crystals. Although I am willing to work on physical ailments, I feel it is preferable to work with people before the thoughts or emotional issues affect the physical expression. The energetic grid system can be repaired on all levels, bringing the person into harmony, centering, and balance
It is my belief that we are all divine beings of the Creator. It is my desire to reflect this truth to all people that I come in contact with. Allowing myself to see each and every person in their perfection, clears away previous judgments in myself and in them. This is the attitude that I choose to put forth into all of my spiritual work, and life. I see those coming to me for healing, as already perfect, thus facilitating the expression of their God given divinity. I know we have come to the time that we are required to go within ourselves and find those things that are not in alignment with our true self, to bring us into harmony with the Earth Mother and all our relations. My first priority is always to continue to work on my self, for only in healing ourselves will we ever reach the place of peace and harmony in the world around us. We change the world one person at a time, and the only one we have the power to change is our self
Creative Endeavors
Creativity is a process that for me is like breath. I couldn’t live without it!
My Photography
Photography for me is about capturing fleeting moments of beauty. I have a profound love of nature and this love transferred so directly to being able to keep moments that I experience there. Visual arts of various kinds always called to me. I don’t have any talent for drawing or painting so that medium was not an option and others found their way into my life in my teens. Collage and batik were two mediums I enjoyed a great deal, but then I discovered photography and it came to take center stage in my creative expression.
I always loved taking snapshots and Polaroids as a kid. My family took vacations in a travel trailer each summer during my youth, all over the U.S. and Canada. Through these trips and many other camping trips in my home state of Minnesota grew inside me a love for all the incredible sights that North America offered. I feel so blessed that my parents gave me this experience that expanded my world view, and birthed in me a continuous desire to see more. The moods of any given location are sometimes only truly captured by someone who lives in the area and photographs the same things over and over in different ways and every possible condition of the weather. There are not enough years or money for me to explore and photograph everything I would love to capture. I know there are photographers who dedicate their lives to chronicling human events so that we can never forget the history we create as moments pass, and I respect their work, but it is not a genre of photography that I could follow myself. My photography’s purpose is to remind me of the beauty here in this world when I get lost in the wars and horrendous deeds of humans. The detail and complexity in a single flower shows me that no matter what we humans do here on earth there is divine origin to this world. Capturing these things helps me to feel close to the Creator and never lets me take this incredible creation for granted.
I love digital and have combined this rekindled love with several years of working with layout and design for my website. Working with effects on some photos to create what feels like a painting is exciting for someone who always wished she could paint!
My Poetry
Most of my poetry is about my spiritual journey. Some of it is quite raw dealing with family issues I am processing at the time. I don’t really edit my poems. They come out as they are, and I share them whether I like them or not I had a whole book full of poems and song lyrics that I burned in 1991. I burned them because of how close to my heart I held them, I didn’t want anyone to ever see them if anything happened to me. It is one of the only things I have done in my life that I actually regret. Included in this book was a whole bunch of poetry that I wrote processing the stillbirth of my only daughter Samantha in 1985. At this point I think there were poems there that may have been healing for other women who experienced a stillbirth, and I wish I could capture them back. Only two poems survived from that time Is Within MeI consciously kept and Glass Rock I found in a bunch of papers a couple years after the burning.
For many years I really didn’t write any poetry. Then I met a most wonderful friend named Martina. She is herself an accomplished poet and when she heard I hadn’t written in years she would have none of that! She tasked me to write again and once I started I never stopped. Now I share all the poems at the request of my spirit guides. They don’t want me to ever hold them so tightly again. Maybe sitting here on the internet they will rarely or never be read, but the fact that they can be read prevents me from hiding aspects of myself that it is not healthy for me to hide.
The Other Arts
I learned batik at an alternative high school I went to in Seattle. I had done a lot of sewing previously so working with fabric was a natural thing for me. I learned a little weaving and basket weaving at the time too but never really pursued those arts. Collage just came naturally to me I loved to work with pictures and words and put them together to say something.
My family got a huge rawhide drum in 1989 that sparked a flame in all of us, and out of that I found myself making drums and rattles as well as shields. This work is amazingly peaceful as I feel each piece is a spiritual undertaking. Many people have issues with working with animal parts, but to me the work is honoring animals that have already been killed. Their energy comes through so strongly and often times dreams come in relation to a certain piece. I always feel each piece is for a specific person and the totems they have come through to offer their medicine to the person the item is for.
All writings, poems, original photos and digital art created from them Copyright 2008 Engtovo Bhodsvatan (Diane M. Wood)
Thank you for sharing your truth and your journey. I have been one seeking truths and answers my entire life and as I stumbled upon your blog today, I read so many things that rang true and confirmed many of my own findings. It was the perfect moment to read your expression. Thank you.
Many Blessings to you and all that you do….